It's not easy being me

Haven't been around for a while because NOTHING really fun has happened to me.  I have had plenty of things happen, just none I would describe as fun.  Since my last post, I have had an abnormal mammogram (that turned out fine-after extra "mashing" to the boobs), my Mom had emergency surgery to repair a hernia,  and my ex took me to court to amend our custody order to suit him and his new family better.   I was really stressing through September but all has worked out for the best and everyone is all better.

I have been doing a little introspection lately--trying to figure out what makes me tick....I am trying to lose some of this bottled up anger, but it isn't going anywhere.  I am seriously trying to figure out how to let anger go--it's not easy.

So today, after seeing a blog about "I am ...." , I decided to write down the things that I like about me so here goes:

I am Amy

I am a single mother of 2 great kids (because or in spite of me-not sure which)

I am a great friend, I love, respect and appreciate all of my friends

I am fun....I am the get in the car for 2 hours Mom to see a big ball of yarn or go out and make my friends laugh until their faces hurt

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I am angry--my ex cheated on me with my friend and made a baby, so yes, I get to be angry sometimes

I yell.....when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am mad--sometimes I go outside and scream just because it feels good

I sing and dance in the car and don't care if anyone sees me

I am not thin...so what?

I love and take care of my family with all that I have to give. My Mother lives with me and I take her everywhere she needs to be and am happy to do it. I also thank God that she is still with me when other people no longer have their parents. I work with/talk to my Dad everyday and I am so thankful that he is a part of my daily life!

I am the best me I can be :)

 

I realize that I have tons to be thankful for, but like everyone else, I get bogged down in the details and have a great big old pity party.  I am trying to work through my issues......one day at a time :)